Poem- What they say

they say its ok to be afraid they say its alright to always want to die.. but then again there are the others who pray for you not to give up... they say don't kill yourself you have so much to live for they say that the past will soon fade away don't relive the past until you fade away
Well i say the pain is real it cant be forgotten in a blink of a eye you cant change the person I've become just because your afraid of the surface that meets your eyes i am who i am, i am who i wish to be my friends love me for who and what i am they accept me no matter how ignorant i can be they have patience
And yet this is what they say, they say its ok but don't leave me alone to suffer the exact pain when your gone i shall wish to die also, you cant leave me just because of your stupid fears, you are here, you have me, why is it so hard to realize i wont walk away
And here is what i say
i am afraid yes i know i am a freak yes but that's ok i am paranoid hell that's only natural
but as long as i know there is something to live for i wont give up hope that i can live my life even through all these frights i may seem out of control i may seem dense i may seem like i don't give a damn but i honestly do but my feeling are never meant to be shown you are whats real you are whats keeping me alive i need you