I feel the sparks of my hate beginning to reverberate from my chest.
I see the signs
but at the least I do my best
I hold my breath and cross my fingers.
The pain is unbearable
I want it all to end.
Sheltering myself
Defending my life
and hoping for less
My knife so beautiful
The blood
Copper and fresh
On my wrist
Stains of tears
Scars from the past
Thoughts that never leave
Love unexistent
Pain so real
I want it more
lead me on to the unknown
so than this hell could end
Oblivion so curious
Never brave
Always demised
Loud and screaming
My pleads for sanity
No one here...
My hero...
Blood..
Death so alive
Approachable
My last chance.
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Far
How far must you go before you can see
Just how miserable you make me.
Does it seem fair when all you do is beg and plead
When your way of showing love is by hurting me.
What makes it right when you say you need me
but truthfully you dont even believe.
Is it real when the bruises and blood appear
Or must you show me more.
When it is all said and done
where will you be when everything destroys me.
Life so disposable
mediocre and obselete.
Who were you to tell me
just how demeaning I can be.
where is my home
when there is no where that I belong.
Just how far must you go before you break me
so you can walk all over me just the same.
Who was I to pretend
Use to be so much
It all was lost
when I thought so much more would come.
Fake smiles
So many tears
But who are you to say it will get better
when nothing has ever changed?
Just how miserable you make me.
Does it seem fair when all you do is beg and plead
When your way of showing love is by hurting me.
What makes it right when you say you need me
but truthfully you dont even believe.
Is it real when the bruises and blood appear
Or must you show me more.
When it is all said and done
where will you be when everything destroys me.
Life so disposable
mediocre and obselete.
Who were you to tell me
just how demeaning I can be.
where is my home
when there is no where that I belong.
Just how far must you go before you break me
so you can walk all over me just the same.
Who was I to pretend
Use to be so much
It all was lost
when I thought so much more would come.
Fake smiles
So many tears
But who are you to say it will get better
when nothing has ever changed?
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Mistaken
Mistaken
Awakening
They say it’s the time it’s our moment our chance. But then again why would they say such a thing when none of us run free?
As the days roll by and my years in end and my legacy that will only be defended by soldiers that have kept my body alive for 600 years in a tank full of ice cold water with a tube hooked to my mouth feeding me calcium and oxygen to keep me strong. Yet there is also a hint of a steroid material mixed in.
I have no name, no where to run. Just a tank, waiting until my moment has come, all I know is what I hear, my memories have been erased except my name Marina.
They say its almost time, I hear screaming, them saying that I wasn’t completely whole yet. I feel every part of me, at least what I know is suppose to be here, I don’t know. Someone then taps on the glass, I wanted to see, but theses darkening things are keeping me. I hear a gun shot and it feels like the water is running low, its emptying. Someone shouts in agony “O god no, don’t awaken it!” What am I, how dangerous could I be? I don’t understand. I hear another gun shot and the man screaming suddenly stops. The tank shatters, with a sound of a whack. I tumble out twitching not use to the air.
The man who realized my movement screams at me. My only thought was to run but I just couldn’t find my legs. My final option was to flinch, without knowing what was coming for me.
I couldn’t feel anything wet. I felt dry. I couldn’t see anything. These things that didn’t allow me to were frustrating me. He continued to yell at me. I cried not knowing what to do or how to react. Then a woman with a soft tender like voice emerged “You cant use force nor anger to get this beast to talk.” I didn’t like the categorization of what she put me in. But what is a “beast” like me too do.
When I knew for sure they got bored of me trying to find my mouth. I was cautiously trying to move the easy parts of my body. First was my thumbs on each hand, then I tried for every finger, after 20 minutes I finally got it. Then I searched for my legs. I only moved one I could feel it. But the other, it wasn’t there. “Completely Whole?” I managed to find my mouth and my eyes at the exact same time. When the two people heard me they ran at me like a cougar for its next victim. I flinched and mumbled “My leg?” They smiled viscously and then said “Yes you have it” I managed a look that I was actually hoping for, I smiled wryly and unpleasantly, as if to say get the fuck out of my face and the said “No the one that isn’t formed yet.” They gave me a sour and an unpleasant scream “You will not and shall not disobey nor question us you beast.” I smiled and then chuckled “Beast? Really I, Thy, Me? No. Beast? I laugh at you” They then pulled out a rope and tied me to a metal pole and then walked away as if they could be conspicuous around this beast.
As they disappeared, I felt an urge, not a normal one I would say, not one a normal human being would have. It was the urge to kill. I didn’t like these people nor the fact that they never tried once to call me normal as if they were trying to piss me off, well I would say it was working pretty well, self explanatory, but the hisses I keep tormenting out only for no one to hear. I was in pain, I wanted to run, but with a leg missing, and me being tied to a pole I knew I wasn’t going anywhere without corporation. Then if that’s the case I can play along as long as they don’t see through my gestures and keep me prisoner even longer. That would be credible, I must keep my attitude and posture in order to get out of this. I must keep cool and then they as humans will want me as a tool and then put some artificial limp on me so they think they can tame and release me. I will then ruin that plan and I will kill them as if nothing would matter if not I shall do it.
Pain
The people that were holding me captive were such beautiful people. The man , now that I learned his name which was Jason. He was about 6’2” with blue eyes and a muscular body, his hair was brown with a tint of blonde streaks that he fixed kind of sloppy. His features made his stand out more than his abs. It seemed he had a doll face when he laughed he had dimples and the way he looked at the female was so intensifying. She herself had a name that I didn’t like in particular, Dana, she had long curly blonde hair and baby blue eyes. She was 5’7” and her face was oldish but only in the mature way. Their voices rung out like bells so tenderly being rung, and their clothes ruined all fate of being perfect. Jason was wearing Kaki pants and wasn’t wearing a shirt above his bear skin, he wore a black coat almost like something you would see in Stars Wars. Dana, she was wearing a Kaki skirt that was 10* too short and a bikini top with also the same kind of coat as Jason.
They were beautiful and they didn’t understand why I blushed ever time one of them came into face distance. They laughed every time I smelled them or reached for their face but they never allowed me to do either. They always flinched away as if I were to rip their heads off, but I knew why they were so scared, humans are afraid of things they don’t understand. Then again aren’t beasts the same? Even though I keep calling myself one I know I’m not. I don’t wish to hurt these people, I only want them to understand, why they cease to know who I am. If I spoke again, would they listen or try to kill me.
I opened my mouth to say a thought or maybe a lie; I don’t exactly know what I was thinking all I knew was that there was a new smell in the room. Smell of cinnamon and Axe the body spray. I begin to sniff more and more as it got closer. Before I knew it, I closed my eyes and the smell overcame me. I almost fainted. I opened my eyes to balance myself and there in front of my face was the beauty of every beast that will even remain. I wanted him, I needed him. Even though I didn’t know him I felt as though he was mine even before he spoke.
When he first spoke his first word to me he treated me as if I was any other human. It sent sparks through my heart to my brain. I almost frenzied out of the chains and when I couldn’t I leaned my head down to sob, without allowing any of these beast keepers to see how weak I really was.
He grabbed my chin and smiled tenderly at me and then kissed me on the forehead and spoke again “ I am Jared and as long you corporate, I promise, I will not hurt you or allow then to” when I heard his voice in sentences I blushed really big and then nodded in agreement and he smiled an immediate dangerous smile, I understood, he wasn’t telling me to corporate he wanted me to run away, but by him saying those words to me also meant that he was going to help, he wanted me to be a real beast they see me as, and as long as they see me as a beast they will be treating me as one. I am pretty sure they aren’t planning on treating me a human anytime soon. With those words and that one look I knew all that.
My eyes widened in astonishment and I just stared at him in his deep green eyes and as he rose up I stared at his features, he had longish short black hair he had glasses and a slender body, not as muscular as Jason, but still a little bit. He had on a pair of baggy black cargos with a chain hanging from his belt loop to his back pocket. His shirt was tight and had a skater symbol on it. He walked over to a chair and picked up the same kind of jacket as the others had. When he went to put it on he fanned all of his scent right back to me. I breathed in deeply to only catch it all. When he heard me, he turned around and began to chuckle gently. Jason and Dana both had heard and came in to see if anyone else was here to takes Jared’s attention, but all they saw was me.
They both frowned the biggest ever known, I laughed at their somehow agony. It kind of pleasured me to see them in pain as if they were expecting someone magnificent than Jared and I talking. They both looked at Jared and motioned for him to come along with them. Jared turned around towards me only to see me shivering. He then laughed out loud, I blushed and put my head down in embarrassment and he smiled really big and handed me his jacket, I frowned and he realized why I was and then he smiled and wrapped it around me. Then rubbed my arm all the way down to my hip in the process, I felt my heart speed up so fast and my face turn red and he saw. He grabbed my chin again, but this time only to kiss my lips. I kissed back of course. Before I knew it he had ht chains undone and whispering in my ear “don’t make a move til I come back, if I don't, try not to die." he smiled and then kissed the crease of my neck and then walked off with the other two of his clan.
When he disappeared I sighed only thinking no one would hear. Unfortunately a cat did. The cat was silverish blue with a random orange spot on the tip of its tail, he was cute , he had a collar that had its name on it, which was Oscar. The cat came up to me and started to rub up all over me and climbed in my lap, got in my face began to lick my nose. I giggled because it tickled really badly and the cat kept doing it trying to get me to pet him. I wasn't suppose to move but the cat was so tempting, I promised Jared not to move. As soon as i thought his name I blushed and then the cat got really pissed and bit my nose. I screamed out in pain and had a tear roll down from my eyes and the cat in my right hand choking the dumb thing. The cat was gagging and hissing, his tail twitching. I laughed at its pain and when there was no sight of life left to that cat I threw it to a wall as hard as I could, the cats head bashed in and cracked on the floor allowing blood to spill everywhere. I chuckled and said " Thats what you get Oscar, bite me, I kill you!" I was still giggling by the time Jared, Dana, and Jason had come back to the room each one of them gave me a look that was practically asking me how could I have done that to a innocent creature. I looked at Jared, who seemed to be ashamed now and then frowned really big, and put my head down in my hands.
Jason was quick, he came over grabed me by the hair and started to beat my head into the wall. Blood started trinckling out through a newly cut in my head. I began coughing up blood by the sixth hit. Jared just stood there watching and wondering. Dana was clapping her hands together making Jason hit harder. The phone rang somewhere in the house, Dana went running for it. When she disappeared, Jason told Jared to go get him a beer. Jared rolled his eyes and obeyed. Jason turned to look at meand then smiled. He grabed around my neck even hareder but not choking me like before, to hold me back from fighting him. He began to smell my hair and then made his hand go from my neck to my boob. He squeezed it and began to breathe hard.
Since i was already naked, because the jacket Jared had wrapped around me fell off. Jason had nothing to rip off, which this pleased him a whole lot more. Through the house i heard Dana still on the phone and Jared cursing the fridge because the damn thing wont open, you could hear him beating it. I wanted to scream, but what would any of the others do to help me, As I was searching noice to help me find out if someone was coming Jasons breathe became heavier as he moved down my body with his hands until he reached one spot where he only used his fingers, he began to move his fingers inside me around and around, in and out, each movement made me gasp. he bit my neck and threw me to the ground, layed ontop of me, made me spread my legs as far as they were ever meant to go and then thrusted himself inside me. I moaned in pain and managed a scream, except not a scream "ahh" but a scream like " Damn it, get the fuck off of me" I screamed that as loud as I could and he muzzled my mouth and continued to thrust himself inside. He breathed in deeply and roughly following his pattern of thrusts.
I was running low on blood because of my forehead, I thought it was bleeding way more than normal. As he continued, I began to lose conscienceness but before I could see darkness fully I saw Jared run up to Jason and punched the shit out of him. I heard him yelling and screaming which seemed so far away. He was right there, holding me. I managed two words, before the darkness overcame me "thank you". After that fell into the dark, I fainted, lost to the dark unknowing what could happen next.
"Hidden"
I wasnt fully awake but i could still feel the movement. I know I wasnt being dragged, I knew I was being carried. I didnt know by who or where they were taking me. The person was holding me gently. I was imaging the outcomes of this and hoping in the end I will see Jareds face again. I was in this persons arms, wincing in pain because the movements hurt me from my head down. The person carrying me somehow read my thoughts and eased up on the jarring. I didnt open my eyes not once I just stayed unmoving hoping my time was not yet up.
I felt a change in temperature. It went from freezing to fairly warm. We had entered a house. The one that carried me took me through this unfamiliar place and layed me down gently on a soft cushiony spot. They grabbed my arms and handcuffed me to the railing of the bed to be sure I wouldnt do something that might get them killed I supposed. When I heard the footsteps disappear out of the room, I opened my eyes and looked around.
I first looked at the dark ceiling and then the back wall where a TV was sitting. Beside the TV was a flower vase with dead flowers in it. On the wall next to the TV on the left side of the room was the door we entered from and a picture of a beautiful woman. I smiled at the picture and then whispered " Beauty of the Beholder". I sighed and then looked on the right all where there wasnt much just a fish tank with salt water fish. A pufferfish that I decided was cranky because he just kept attacking the little Nemo looking fish. After I got bored of watching the fish I looked up at my hands and the wall behind me. Nothing was on it, just a bare wall. I sighed again because there was nothing else to stare at. So I was searching for the pesron who had brought me here. I heard bags rattleing and him moaning in anger.
After 20 minutes I heard a loud Bang. I jumped in fright not knowing what to think. This man could have been shot for taking me. He could have gotten squished by something he was searching thrugh. I didnt know, I didnt want myself to look like a fool if the man came in here seeign me cry for some unknown persons death so I held it in.
After 5 minutes, I heard him cuss the scream "Screw it, this is good enough". Then I heard footsteps fast and stomping the man came in the room didnt look at me, shut the door and then got on top of me without looking at my face. He undones the handcuffs and then raised me up and put on a bra and panties, then a brown skirt and a white spahgetti strap shirt. He smiled at his accomplishment until he saw my eyes wide open and face redder than a tamatoe. He blushed and then got off of me as fast as his feet and head would allow. He then got wobbily and fainted right on me agian his head resting on my cleavage and hios hand on my belly. I was trying not to breathe hard because i didnt want to awake him, but it was so hard. I loved his scent, I loved the way his skin felt on mine. This man, Jared, was all I ever wanted. He saved me, from the beast keepers. I now owe this man my life in return. I sighed as I brushed my hand through his hair. I whispered " Why are you so nice to me?" he jumped in his sleep when I said those words, then his hand went to rest uder his head and on my boob. I didnt mind he was gentler that Jason and I trusted him not to do anything to me. At least I thought he wouldnt.
Jared woke up before me and got off of me, then just laid beside me, he grabbed my hand, started tracing the lines that was on it. Jared seemed to be thinking of something. I wanted to ask but he seemed alot more comfortable when I was sleeping, so I just sat there pretending. As we layed there in silence the door bell rang, he got up in a flash and ran. He smiled from what I could see and let the visitor in.
This visitor was a man, with a white coat on and a box that had the red hospial sign on it, and in the other hand a metal box. The box was shiny and when I heard Jared say "hold on please doctor, allow me to go get her." I became nervous. I just scruntched up in a ball, and hid my face. Jared came in and tapped on whatever he thought was me, which it was, but it was my forehead that was now a giant scab. I felt the scrap bust open and I began to bleed again.
I didnt move nor make a noise Jared tried to take the blanket off of me, though I had all my body weight on it. So he was forced to go through the bottom of the blanket. As he climbed up through the blankets rubbing himself against me and his breathe caressing my skin sent cold chills across my body. When he reached the top of the bed where my head laid with eyes closed trying not to make no sudden movement that might have scared Jared in the end. Jared smiled and whispered "You know we are going to give you a leg, you shouldnt be afraid, please come out." He grabbed my hand and i squeezed it. He raised me up to get the blankets out from under me. When the blankets we off, he got off of me, picked me up and then led me straight to the doctor. Jared nodded at the doctor and then smiled at me. I gasped. He chuckled and then turned to the Doctor that was getting very impatient. I tried to force a smile to make the doctor seem welcomed but I only scared the poor guy. The doctor gave a cough and the began to speak. "Well.... so she is the one we are putting that limb on for?" Jared began to speak. "Yes Doctor Hanes, I will pay." the doctor laughed and then smiled at me. " No I dont think payment is necessary, after all, those hunters is what wants her." Jared frownedat that thought, I sighed and then thought of Jason.
I shuddered, Jared felt it and then pressed himself lightly against me. I blushed nobody noticed because Jared was then cleaning a spot and laying out newspapers on the ground while Doctor Hanes was getting the limb read to be placed on. I was very nervous. I didnt know what to do or to think. Whether I should trust thid man or not, but if he was a friend of Jareds I would have to try because Jared was now my number one priority now. He has hidden me, saved me, and now giving me a leg. Yet, I have nothing in return.
Walking
The pain was overwhelming, I didnt know what the Doc was doing I was too busy staring at Jared and his face just telling me that I will be alright, his face was promising. I tried not to scream, I just kept letting out sighs of pain, but yet relief that this man was still standing beside me. The doctor kept the cuts slow and easy hoping it wouldnt cause me as much pain, honestly I prefer this hell to be quick and done with. He was cutting along my skin to find my nerves but since I didnt have a leg before, just formed a stub it was harder than it was suppose to be. I just rode it out. Once he found my nerves the doctor laughed becuase I sighed in relief. "Well darling the worst part is over" the doctor laughed and hooked the limb to me and I jerk in astonishment. The doctor kept a close eye on me to make sure I wasnt going to faint from blood loss. He was drilling the screws inside my leg for the limb to stay attached. My other leg was already numb from all the pain. So I was stareing aroung wondering when this was going to end so I can eat already. My stomach gurgled really loud about the time the doctor decided to stop drilling. Jared looked down at me and just laughed out loud. I blushed and said lightly " What Im hungry. Oxygen and Calcium Water dont last forever." he smiled at me speaking to him. I hardly ever did/ This was my third day actually knowing him. Yet it seems as if I've known him longer. Then all of a sudden he frowned. I looked at him in wonder. He tilted his head in question. I frownned and then asked in a higher key " you okay?" he smiled a fake smile that would try to convince someone to back off, so I did. He smiled one to say thankyou. I smiled and then closed my eyes and i heard two sets of footsteps and then I heard the Doc and Jared talking I couldnt hear them, but all I knew was that I had a new set of toes and they were shiny. I thought of them as a guidancce. I wanted to walk, I couldnt, I was too dizzy and I didnt even know how to, so I just closed my eyes again, waiting for the footsteps to return, but before they did I fell into a deep sleep.
I dreamed of me walking with double swords and a black cloak like Jared's, Jason's, and Dana's. I dreamed that I ws married with a kid. Female about 16 years of age, but I didnt age, my husband, not with me, left with a boat for a trip never returned. We were being attacked my little girl an assassin, fighting like a pro. Me, I was better with the swords, they were like my key. We were ambushed. My little girl got her head cut off. I was stabed. Then Jared's face was there. The one killing me.
I woke up screaming. Jared came running. he grabbed my arm and asked "Whats wrong?". Before I could think. I wrapped my arms around him and began to sob loudly. He put one arm around me and lightly patted my back. After 2 minutes he wrapped both arms around me and then kissed me on the top of my head. I squeezed him tighter and then whispered "Please dont ever hate me" he squeezed me tighter " I wont I am your protector" I sighed and then let go and yawned really big. He let go and laid down beside me. he pulled the blankets over him, and grabbed my shirt to pull me close as close as I could be too him. I loved his warmth. It felt so good. He whispered in my ear "You are my responsibility, I will never hurt you." I yawned again and planted my face into his chest. I ws counting his beats and by the 20th I fell right asleep.
When I woke back up Jared was gone. I got up so fast my leg sent sharp shocks up my body, I grabbed ahold of a chair that was next to me. I leaned on it and fell flat on my face. I winced at the pain. I grabbed the chair again to help me up and to fix it in its upright position. When finally I was on both feet I tried my first step. I became wobbly again and didnt finish that step. I got angry. I took my foot off the ground and pushed it forward and then I did the same with the other. It hurt so badly, but I wanted Jared. I began to cry. I couldnt make it too him wherever he was. I wasnt going to give up not yet. I kept going forward. I kept going each step getting faster and faster until I met it to a stride. I didnt notice, I didnt even care. I made it to the bathroom where I heard the water running in the shower, but there was no change in the flow of the water hitting the bottom of the tub. I yelled "Jared" no reply. I got worried and barged in. He was in the bath tub laying down with the water flowing over him and blood all over him. he looked at me and did an eye movement telling me to look behind me. I did and right behind me was Jason. He grabbed my arm and pulled me with him. I yelled. He began to laugh and the said " member the last time love, I wasnt quite done with you then." I screamed louder as he threw me onto the bed. Jason then ripped off my clothes and began to undo his belt. i was looking around for a weapon. What I found were the weapons from my dream, my swords. I grabbed them and then moved them in a slicing motion and managed to cut hos dick off. He got off of me and screamed loudly. I was in my bra and panties, but wasnt done with him either. I went up to him in a fighting stance, he was holding where he had no penis. he was screaming. I began to laugh and then moved the blade to his head abd slit his neck off, his body laid there twitching. I looked at the
Awakening
They say it’s the time it’s our moment our chance. But then again why would they say such a thing when none of us run free?
As the days roll by and my years in end and my legacy that will only be defended by soldiers that have kept my body alive for 600 years in a tank full of ice cold water with a tube hooked to my mouth feeding me calcium and oxygen to keep me strong. Yet there is also a hint of a steroid material mixed in.
I have no name, no where to run. Just a tank, waiting until my moment has come, all I know is what I hear, my memories have been erased except my name Marina.
They say its almost time, I hear screaming, them saying that I wasn’t completely whole yet. I feel every part of me, at least what I know is suppose to be here, I don’t know. Someone then taps on the glass, I wanted to see, but theses darkening things are keeping me. I hear a gun shot and it feels like the water is running low, its emptying. Someone shouts in agony “O god no, don’t awaken it!” What am I, how dangerous could I be? I don’t understand. I hear another gun shot and the man screaming suddenly stops. The tank shatters, with a sound of a whack. I tumble out twitching not use to the air.
The man who realized my movement screams at me. My only thought was to run but I just couldn’t find my legs. My final option was to flinch, without knowing what was coming for me.
I couldn’t feel anything wet. I felt dry. I couldn’t see anything. These things that didn’t allow me to were frustrating me. He continued to yell at me. I cried not knowing what to do or how to react. Then a woman with a soft tender like voice emerged “You cant use force nor anger to get this beast to talk.” I didn’t like the categorization of what she put me in. But what is a “beast” like me too do.
When I knew for sure they got bored of me trying to find my mouth. I was cautiously trying to move the easy parts of my body. First was my thumbs on each hand, then I tried for every finger, after 20 minutes I finally got it. Then I searched for my legs. I only moved one I could feel it. But the other, it wasn’t there. “Completely Whole?” I managed to find my mouth and my eyes at the exact same time. When the two people heard me they ran at me like a cougar for its next victim. I flinched and mumbled “My leg?” They smiled viscously and then said “Yes you have it” I managed a look that I was actually hoping for, I smiled wryly and unpleasantly, as if to say get the fuck out of my face and the said “No the one that isn’t formed yet.” They gave me a sour and an unpleasant scream “You will not and shall not disobey nor question us you beast.” I smiled and then chuckled “Beast? Really I, Thy, Me? No. Beast? I laugh at you” They then pulled out a rope and tied me to a metal pole and then walked away as if they could be conspicuous around this beast.
As they disappeared, I felt an urge, not a normal one I would say, not one a normal human being would have. It was the urge to kill. I didn’t like these people nor the fact that they never tried once to call me normal as if they were trying to piss me off, well I would say it was working pretty well, self explanatory, but the hisses I keep tormenting out only for no one to hear. I was in pain, I wanted to run, but with a leg missing, and me being tied to a pole I knew I wasn’t going anywhere without corporation. Then if that’s the case I can play along as long as they don’t see through my gestures and keep me prisoner even longer. That would be credible, I must keep my attitude and posture in order to get out of this. I must keep cool and then they as humans will want me as a tool and then put some artificial limp on me so they think they can tame and release me. I will then ruin that plan and I will kill them as if nothing would matter if not I shall do it.
Pain
The people that were holding me captive were such beautiful people. The man , now that I learned his name which was Jason. He was about 6’2” with blue eyes and a muscular body, his hair was brown with a tint of blonde streaks that he fixed kind of sloppy. His features made his stand out more than his abs. It seemed he had a doll face when he laughed he had dimples and the way he looked at the female was so intensifying. She herself had a name that I didn’t like in particular, Dana, she had long curly blonde hair and baby blue eyes. She was 5’7” and her face was oldish but only in the mature way. Their voices rung out like bells so tenderly being rung, and their clothes ruined all fate of being perfect. Jason was wearing Kaki pants and wasn’t wearing a shirt above his bear skin, he wore a black coat almost like something you would see in Stars Wars. Dana, she was wearing a Kaki skirt that was 10* too short and a bikini top with also the same kind of coat as Jason.
They were beautiful and they didn’t understand why I blushed ever time one of them came into face distance. They laughed every time I smelled them or reached for their face but they never allowed me to do either. They always flinched away as if I were to rip their heads off, but I knew why they were so scared, humans are afraid of things they don’t understand. Then again aren’t beasts the same? Even though I keep calling myself one I know I’m not. I don’t wish to hurt these people, I only want them to understand, why they cease to know who I am. If I spoke again, would they listen or try to kill me.
I opened my mouth to say a thought or maybe a lie; I don’t exactly know what I was thinking all I knew was that there was a new smell in the room. Smell of cinnamon and Axe the body spray. I begin to sniff more and more as it got closer. Before I knew it, I closed my eyes and the smell overcame me. I almost fainted. I opened my eyes to balance myself and there in front of my face was the beauty of every beast that will even remain. I wanted him, I needed him. Even though I didn’t know him I felt as though he was mine even before he spoke.
When he first spoke his first word to me he treated me as if I was any other human. It sent sparks through my heart to my brain. I almost frenzied out of the chains and when I couldn’t I leaned my head down to sob, without allowing any of these beast keepers to see how weak I really was.
He grabbed my chin and smiled tenderly at me and then kissed me on the forehead and spoke again “ I am Jared and as long you corporate, I promise, I will not hurt you or allow then to” when I heard his voice in sentences I blushed really big and then nodded in agreement and he smiled an immediate dangerous smile, I understood, he wasn’t telling me to corporate he wanted me to run away, but by him saying those words to me also meant that he was going to help, he wanted me to be a real beast they see me as, and as long as they see me as a beast they will be treating me as one. I am pretty sure they aren’t planning on treating me a human anytime soon. With those words and that one look I knew all that.
My eyes widened in astonishment and I just stared at him in his deep green eyes and as he rose up I stared at his features, he had longish short black hair he had glasses and a slender body, not as muscular as Jason, but still a little bit. He had on a pair of baggy black cargos with a chain hanging from his belt loop to his back pocket. His shirt was tight and had a skater symbol on it. He walked over to a chair and picked up the same kind of jacket as the others had. When he went to put it on he fanned all of his scent right back to me. I breathed in deeply to only catch it all. When he heard me, he turned around and began to chuckle gently. Jason and Dana both had heard and came in to see if anyone else was here to takes Jared’s attention, but all they saw was me.
They both frowned the biggest ever known, I laughed at their somehow agony. It kind of pleasured me to see them in pain as if they were expecting someone magnificent than Jared and I talking. They both looked at Jared and motioned for him to come along with them. Jared turned around towards me only to see me shivering. He then laughed out loud, I blushed and put my head down in embarrassment and he smiled really big and handed me his jacket, I frowned and he realized why I was and then he smiled and wrapped it around me. Then rubbed my arm all the way down to my hip in the process, I felt my heart speed up so fast and my face turn red and he saw. He grabbed my chin again, but this time only to kiss my lips. I kissed back of course. Before I knew it he had ht chains undone and whispering in my ear “don’t make a move til I come back, if I don't, try not to die." he smiled and then kissed the crease of my neck and then walked off with the other two of his clan.
When he disappeared I sighed only thinking no one would hear. Unfortunately a cat did. The cat was silverish blue with a random orange spot on the tip of its tail, he was cute , he had a collar that had its name on it, which was Oscar. The cat came up to me and started to rub up all over me and climbed in my lap, got in my face began to lick my nose. I giggled because it tickled really badly and the cat kept doing it trying to get me to pet him. I wasn't suppose to move but the cat was so tempting, I promised Jared not to move. As soon as i thought his name I blushed and then the cat got really pissed and bit my nose. I screamed out in pain and had a tear roll down from my eyes and the cat in my right hand choking the dumb thing. The cat was gagging and hissing, his tail twitching. I laughed at its pain and when there was no sight of life left to that cat I threw it to a wall as hard as I could, the cats head bashed in and cracked on the floor allowing blood to spill everywhere. I chuckled and said " Thats what you get Oscar, bite me, I kill you!" I was still giggling by the time Jared, Dana, and Jason had come back to the room each one of them gave me a look that was practically asking me how could I have done that to a innocent creature. I looked at Jared, who seemed to be ashamed now and then frowned really big, and put my head down in my hands.
Jason was quick, he came over grabed me by the hair and started to beat my head into the wall. Blood started trinckling out through a newly cut in my head. I began coughing up blood by the sixth hit. Jared just stood there watching and wondering. Dana was clapping her hands together making Jason hit harder. The phone rang somewhere in the house, Dana went running for it. When she disappeared, Jason told Jared to go get him a beer. Jared rolled his eyes and obeyed. Jason turned to look at meand then smiled. He grabed around my neck even hareder but not choking me like before, to hold me back from fighting him. He began to smell my hair and then made his hand go from my neck to my boob. He squeezed it and began to breathe hard.
Since i was already naked, because the jacket Jared had wrapped around me fell off. Jason had nothing to rip off, which this pleased him a whole lot more. Through the house i heard Dana still on the phone and Jared cursing the fridge because the damn thing wont open, you could hear him beating it. I wanted to scream, but what would any of the others do to help me, As I was searching noice to help me find out if someone was coming Jasons breathe became heavier as he moved down my body with his hands until he reached one spot where he only used his fingers, he began to move his fingers inside me around and around, in and out, each movement made me gasp. he bit my neck and threw me to the ground, layed ontop of me, made me spread my legs as far as they were ever meant to go and then thrusted himself inside me. I moaned in pain and managed a scream, except not a scream "ahh" but a scream like " Damn it, get the fuck off of me" I screamed that as loud as I could and he muzzled my mouth and continued to thrust himself inside. He breathed in deeply and roughly following his pattern of thrusts.
I was running low on blood because of my forehead, I thought it was bleeding way more than normal. As he continued, I began to lose conscienceness but before I could see darkness fully I saw Jared run up to Jason and punched the shit out of him. I heard him yelling and screaming which seemed so far away. He was right there, holding me. I managed two words, before the darkness overcame me "thank you". After that fell into the dark, I fainted, lost to the dark unknowing what could happen next.
"Hidden"
I wasnt fully awake but i could still feel the movement. I know I wasnt being dragged, I knew I was being carried. I didnt know by who or where they were taking me. The person was holding me gently. I was imaging the outcomes of this and hoping in the end I will see Jareds face again. I was in this persons arms, wincing in pain because the movements hurt me from my head down. The person carrying me somehow read my thoughts and eased up on the jarring. I didnt open my eyes not once I just stayed unmoving hoping my time was not yet up.
I felt a change in temperature. It went from freezing to fairly warm. We had entered a house. The one that carried me took me through this unfamiliar place and layed me down gently on a soft cushiony spot. They grabbed my arms and handcuffed me to the railing of the bed to be sure I wouldnt do something that might get them killed I supposed. When I heard the footsteps disappear out of the room, I opened my eyes and looked around.
I first looked at the dark ceiling and then the back wall where a TV was sitting. Beside the TV was a flower vase with dead flowers in it. On the wall next to the TV on the left side of the room was the door we entered from and a picture of a beautiful woman. I smiled at the picture and then whispered " Beauty of the Beholder". I sighed and then looked on the right all where there wasnt much just a fish tank with salt water fish. A pufferfish that I decided was cranky because he just kept attacking the little Nemo looking fish. After I got bored of watching the fish I looked up at my hands and the wall behind me. Nothing was on it, just a bare wall. I sighed again because there was nothing else to stare at. So I was searching for the pesron who had brought me here. I heard bags rattleing and him moaning in anger.
After 20 minutes I heard a loud Bang. I jumped in fright not knowing what to think. This man could have been shot for taking me. He could have gotten squished by something he was searching thrugh. I didnt know, I didnt want myself to look like a fool if the man came in here seeign me cry for some unknown persons death so I held it in.
After 5 minutes, I heard him cuss the scream "Screw it, this is good enough". Then I heard footsteps fast and stomping the man came in the room didnt look at me, shut the door and then got on top of me without looking at my face. He undones the handcuffs and then raised me up and put on a bra and panties, then a brown skirt and a white spahgetti strap shirt. He smiled at his accomplishment until he saw my eyes wide open and face redder than a tamatoe. He blushed and then got off of me as fast as his feet and head would allow. He then got wobbily and fainted right on me agian his head resting on my cleavage and hios hand on my belly. I was trying not to breathe hard because i didnt want to awake him, but it was so hard. I loved his scent, I loved the way his skin felt on mine. This man, Jared, was all I ever wanted. He saved me, from the beast keepers. I now owe this man my life in return. I sighed as I brushed my hand through his hair. I whispered " Why are you so nice to me?" he jumped in his sleep when I said those words, then his hand went to rest uder his head and on my boob. I didnt mind he was gentler that Jason and I trusted him not to do anything to me. At least I thought he wouldnt.
Jared woke up before me and got off of me, then just laid beside me, he grabbed my hand, started tracing the lines that was on it. Jared seemed to be thinking of something. I wanted to ask but he seemed alot more comfortable when I was sleeping, so I just sat there pretending. As we layed there in silence the door bell rang, he got up in a flash and ran. He smiled from what I could see and let the visitor in.
This visitor was a man, with a white coat on and a box that had the red hospial sign on it, and in the other hand a metal box. The box was shiny and when I heard Jared say "hold on please doctor, allow me to go get her." I became nervous. I just scruntched up in a ball, and hid my face. Jared came in and tapped on whatever he thought was me, which it was, but it was my forehead that was now a giant scab. I felt the scrap bust open and I began to bleed again.
I didnt move nor make a noise Jared tried to take the blanket off of me, though I had all my body weight on it. So he was forced to go through the bottom of the blanket. As he climbed up through the blankets rubbing himself against me and his breathe caressing my skin sent cold chills across my body. When he reached the top of the bed where my head laid with eyes closed trying not to make no sudden movement that might have scared Jared in the end. Jared smiled and whispered "You know we are going to give you a leg, you shouldnt be afraid, please come out." He grabbed my hand and i squeezed it. He raised me up to get the blankets out from under me. When the blankets we off, he got off of me, picked me up and then led me straight to the doctor. Jared nodded at the doctor and then smiled at me. I gasped. He chuckled and then turned to the Doctor that was getting very impatient. I tried to force a smile to make the doctor seem welcomed but I only scared the poor guy. The doctor gave a cough and the began to speak. "Well.... so she is the one we are putting that limb on for?" Jared began to speak. "Yes Doctor Hanes, I will pay." the doctor laughed and then smiled at me. " No I dont think payment is necessary, after all, those hunters is what wants her." Jared frownedat that thought, I sighed and then thought of Jason.
I shuddered, Jared felt it and then pressed himself lightly against me. I blushed nobody noticed because Jared was then cleaning a spot and laying out newspapers on the ground while Doctor Hanes was getting the limb read to be placed on. I was very nervous. I didnt know what to do or to think. Whether I should trust thid man or not, but if he was a friend of Jareds I would have to try because Jared was now my number one priority now. He has hidden me, saved me, and now giving me a leg. Yet, I have nothing in return.
Walking
The pain was overwhelming, I didnt know what the Doc was doing I was too busy staring at Jared and his face just telling me that I will be alright, his face was promising. I tried not to scream, I just kept letting out sighs of pain, but yet relief that this man was still standing beside me. The doctor kept the cuts slow and easy hoping it wouldnt cause me as much pain, honestly I prefer this hell to be quick and done with. He was cutting along my skin to find my nerves but since I didnt have a leg before, just formed a stub it was harder than it was suppose to be. I just rode it out. Once he found my nerves the doctor laughed becuase I sighed in relief. "Well darling the worst part is over" the doctor laughed and hooked the limb to me and I jerk in astonishment. The doctor kept a close eye on me to make sure I wasnt going to faint from blood loss. He was drilling the screws inside my leg for the limb to stay attached. My other leg was already numb from all the pain. So I was stareing aroung wondering when this was going to end so I can eat already. My stomach gurgled really loud about the time the doctor decided to stop drilling. Jared looked down at me and just laughed out loud. I blushed and said lightly " What Im hungry. Oxygen and Calcium Water dont last forever." he smiled at me speaking to him. I hardly ever did/ This was my third day actually knowing him. Yet it seems as if I've known him longer. Then all of a sudden he frowned. I looked at him in wonder. He tilted his head in question. I frownned and then asked in a higher key " you okay?" he smiled a fake smile that would try to convince someone to back off, so I did. He smiled one to say thankyou. I smiled and then closed my eyes and i heard two sets of footsteps and then I heard the Doc and Jared talking I couldnt hear them, but all I knew was that I had a new set of toes and they were shiny. I thought of them as a guidancce. I wanted to walk, I couldnt, I was too dizzy and I didnt even know how to, so I just closed my eyes again, waiting for the footsteps to return, but before they did I fell into a deep sleep.
I dreamed of me walking with double swords and a black cloak like Jared's, Jason's, and Dana's. I dreamed that I ws married with a kid. Female about 16 years of age, but I didnt age, my husband, not with me, left with a boat for a trip never returned. We were being attacked my little girl an assassin, fighting like a pro. Me, I was better with the swords, they were like my key. We were ambushed. My little girl got her head cut off. I was stabed. Then Jared's face was there. The one killing me.
I woke up screaming. Jared came running. he grabbed my arm and asked "Whats wrong?". Before I could think. I wrapped my arms around him and began to sob loudly. He put one arm around me and lightly patted my back. After 2 minutes he wrapped both arms around me and then kissed me on the top of my head. I squeezed him tighter and then whispered "Please dont ever hate me" he squeezed me tighter " I wont I am your protector" I sighed and then let go and yawned really big. He let go and laid down beside me. he pulled the blankets over him, and grabbed my shirt to pull me close as close as I could be too him. I loved his warmth. It felt so good. He whispered in my ear "You are my responsibility, I will never hurt you." I yawned again and planted my face into his chest. I ws counting his beats and by the 20th I fell right asleep.
When I woke back up Jared was gone. I got up so fast my leg sent sharp shocks up my body, I grabbed ahold of a chair that was next to me. I leaned on it and fell flat on my face. I winced at the pain. I grabbed the chair again to help me up and to fix it in its upright position. When finally I was on both feet I tried my first step. I became wobbly again and didnt finish that step. I got angry. I took my foot off the ground and pushed it forward and then I did the same with the other. It hurt so badly, but I wanted Jared. I began to cry. I couldnt make it too him wherever he was. I wasnt going to give up not yet. I kept going forward. I kept going each step getting faster and faster until I met it to a stride. I didnt notice, I didnt even care. I made it to the bathroom where I heard the water running in the shower, but there was no change in the flow of the water hitting the bottom of the tub. I yelled "Jared" no reply. I got worried and barged in. He was in the bath tub laying down with the water flowing over him and blood all over him. he looked at me and did an eye movement telling me to look behind me. I did and right behind me was Jason. He grabbed my arm and pulled me with him. I yelled. He began to laugh and the said " member the last time love, I wasnt quite done with you then." I screamed louder as he threw me onto the bed. Jason then ripped off my clothes and began to undo his belt. i was looking around for a weapon. What I found were the weapons from my dream, my swords. I grabbed them and then moved them in a slicing motion and managed to cut hos dick off. He got off of me and screamed loudly. I was in my bra and panties, but wasnt done with him either. I went up to him in a fighting stance, he was holding where he had no penis. he was screaming. I began to laugh and then moved the blade to his head abd slit his neck off, his body laid there twitching. I looked at the
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