Pain will remain

The Pain will remain
(Present)

This is a place where all seems right but nothing ever comes when you look around the question is, is how do these people live their lives without a stretch of fear in their eyes you know they are faking but how can it be it isn’t real its all make belief. Nothing ever feels this good as you look upon the people of this place you feel the happiness the joy the people are spreading then you begin to think of all that has faded away for you all the pain all the hate everything comes back to you, you were right there is no place for internal and everlasting happiness there will never be a place not even heaven can make this hate go away. Why are you even trying it isn’t about turn out any different this a hell a new burden a new fear a new despised life another place where you can just be even more forgotten why give it a chance its the way it always turns out to be just another shadow amongst their feet. O yes keep on trying to make them see that you are not what you seem. They are laughing at your plead. Why can’t you see you are never welcome to be one of their clan just another difference between you and me, you give up and I just walk away as if none of this ever mattered any way. So answer this why cant you just walk away from your own pain. Well maybe I have a guess it’s the same with me, it just won’t go away the pain the memories will always remain throughout your train of thoughts until the end of eternity. Ehh what does it matter no point in trying to save another’s life go do as you please but when all goes wrong don’t come crying to me.

(4 hours later)

o so you had fun in the beginning but like I said you were only a shadow amongst their feet.
Yeah whatever don’t listen to me. Life isn’t simple but it can really be easily read its obvious just learn how to read. The mere senses of life the time it takes to even realize that nothing will go as prepared the future only depends on how you are willing to give things up just for one thing that may make your life seem even more greater. Maybe its okay to take chances but its not okay when you have the feeling that its all going to stay the same. Learn to walk away, learn to release your pain without fighting to keep it in. Life can be good but you just have to give it a chance. Fall on your knees close your eyes and just think of all the ways you can make your life seem a bit more livable. Not unbearable. Yeah its okay at times to pretend your okay but soon you will pay for keeping that hell within you as if like a bottle of sand getting filled up so fast about to explode from the pressure that is within it. It’s alright to at least say goodbye for one night to all that makes you what you have become an empty soul.
(The past)
On the verge of a break down nothing more to live for that’s all they say. Nothing even seems worth living for. What’s the point really how can I make this all seem worth wild. How is it that all seem to play all seem to be o-so happy but within their eyes it tells a whole different story. It’s their pain... it’s their fears that still make them fall to the ground in a ball and cry their life away. Why does it seem like it’s easy. I know it’s not... it’s more pain when you keep it all in.... it’s an even worse hell that nobody has ever accomplished to foresee. How in the hell am I suppose to be any different from the way I am. Why do I have to be something that I will never be? I am who I am and I will never cease to be. You want me to change who I am well this is from me the life and precious and innocent little angel that you all see me to be.... go suck a cock make that bastard feel better and get fucked in the ass and yell in so much pleasure that the world can hear you scream and when its all over you look beside your side and see he's gone and you begin to cry and I come through the door and begin to laugh and then I blurt out get over yourself you allowed that to happen but yeah here you are a weak sack of shit but still you try to keep yourself up with a smile. Why is that?? He's gone hello!!!! Get that through your head!!! Hell Fucking Fire you’re still smiling....eh I give up...

(Back to the present)

Just like me an empty soul that tries so hard to make at least someone happy throughout my life.... I wont force you to forget but I will try to make you to be a little more alive than you think you seem to be as long as you need me I promise you this much I will always be the one and only one to ever allow you to run to me and I wont allow you to leave my side until its your time when you say you want to go I will gladly let you go... when you need a shoulder I will always be here for you just don’t give up on yourself or on me

LET THE PAIN GO AND AT LEAST TRY TO LET THE HAPPINESS OVERFLOW THROUGHOUT YOUR SOUL SO YOUR LIFE CAN BE SOMETHING EVEN MORE THAN IT IS
Like all to be forgotten in the bitterness of life nothing ever seems to fight. What’s the point what’s even happiness how do you play or what does it taste like mm… just another sour substance that makes even the best of days seem like a worthless hell. There’s a point in this suffering eh… honesty why do you try so hard to make everything seem right? Its hard enough just to pretend to be happy every day of your miserable life. How long will it take to make you see that your dream will never be a happy life with a loving husband with a grateful child with a loving mother and a great father with a big 3 bedroom house on the side of a country mountain and below a raging river with the best of green trees and in the winter snow up to your knees. Just make belief what’s the point just quit dreaming it will never be. Just quit pretending that life can be even a lot better than I make it seem to be.

Poem- Smile in Peace

Let me smile in peace
where i can hope this pain will ease
suffice and live forever to think there is no more
to let a laugh be surreal
and live it out with appeal.
to understand to acknowledge the truth
to understand whats hidden beneath the view
Let a smile be my own
Let me be the one i seek
and lest to hope that nothing can cease
to live through
and on
til i tie the bonds of death before time
again i wait to see my fate
all i feel is the being of late
ways to demand
and lend my hand
so i can help the ones who fall
but yet i appall at the thought of fear
the screams i hear
the tears rolling uncontrollably
can only make me yearn for
one last smile
let me smile in peace
so i know this world wont cease

Detached: short story

Hmmm so now is the time to say what’s on my mind well the question is, is which part do you wish to hear? The part where all my fear is all that is clear? Or the way I feel when I am with you? I will explain to you how much I love you.
You are my life, my soul, my heart, my universe. You are everything to me and I will never let that one feeling go. You keep me alive and yeah it’s kind of hard to say why, but I will do my best. You make me feel like I am actually here like there is nothing more to fear. When I hear your voice all thoughts of pain goes away in a blink of an eye. When I know that you are happy… I feel the greatest of joys throughout my soul. You accept me for who I am and what I have been through. You make me want to jump up in joy just when I see you in my thoughts. When I don’t get to talk to you I feel lonely and I begin to wonder if I ever will talk to you again. I wonder if all that you say to me is true do you actually feel the way you say you do. Do you really love me? How can it be? I am so not worthy. I am…… empty… bound…. Detached…. Mistaken… misunderstood and easily forgotten…. But why do you say I am awesome?
You are the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. You make a cloudy day turn bright. You make my world never leave the place where you run through my thoughts. You are the life, the sun, the earth, the universe, and I will be glad to put all that I have down just to make you happy. I want you to be happy. I need you to be.
So never forget that I am here and I will always stand beside your side and hold your hand till you say it’s enough and it’s time to let go. I will never give you up, unless you say we must… when you say were through than that will break my heart but as long as I know it’s for the better I will let go. But if that day ever comes, never forget…. I am here; I am your shoulder, when you need me I will always be there for you… Just never forget…. Don’t ever forget……that I love you more than you could even guess… I love you never forget that.

Poem- Hell Within

this is my hell within each and every moment… this is the time where I wish to die on every surface known to man… let me die in my own pain inside all that’s left of me allow me to relive the past that haunts me still even this day… Don’t forget that this is a burden a burden within a burden never to forget.. help me help you see that this is not a game

Poem- Death is forever

Lets ease this agony that we all feel amongst our hearts only because this one soul has left the body of his life. He is gone now, we all go so what’s the point of crying even though we know, it ain't gonna last forever. There’s no point in trying to make your life go longer. Its a hell, a burden always forgotten when the time comes we all will perish even more. Life ends it will never go on forever. Immortal soul the gods say. Mortal cause unfortunately those immortal souls are dead too. SO is there a point in crying yes... but only because you cared don’t wish you can turn back time to make sure he is still here with you. Your needs and wants will never get you anywhere he wont come back and that’s a fact.

Poem- Lost In darkness

forever lost inside the darkness
and the greatest of most moments appear
and the only lasting memory i fear is the
one that i hold dear it keeps me
near and that i dont fear that i am no longer there
i will always remain throughout your thoughts
and every sight of days can only seem to fade away
as long as i know that you wont give up
then i can live long forever inside the world
where i can never disappear and here
i stand lights around me and wings spread out
and whispering lullabys spread around for only you to hear.
So here i stand at my funeral all is there all as it should seem to be
all mope all cry all on there knees asking me why?
Why did i leave them in that hell hole
without someone for them to run and cry to
and never will i be there for them
to have a shoulder for them to lean on.
Why did you go
and how did you never know
that i would never be alright without you beside me..
I am the angel of life i am the angel of forgiveness
and i would never leave someone i hold dear in such pain and agony..
i will always stand and i will always be watching you all
you have to do is promise me you wont cry at my funeral...
for i promise you i wont hold it a grudge
if you dont my only fear is when i can no longer speak to you
and you will never know how badly i feel that i never got to say goodbye
to you for when my voice fades into the lullaby of fate my last words
i shall speak is i love you
and i want you to live your life but never forget about me....

Poem- Remember Me

This was way beyond my choice,
Way beyond my hopes,
Never meant to be part of this mistaken dream,
But i am still holding on.
What’s the point i want to let go...
i need to but,..
With you...
You make even my darkest fears turn so bright
But yet you seem...
To be...
Walking away from me.
How was i supposed to know i would end up like this...?
How were you suppose to know
You meant even more than the world to me...
But yet you keep getting farther
And farther away from me.
I was real there for a while.
Within your reach but you never reached for me.
How was i supposed to know that you didn’t want to be...?
That you never seen...
Happiness through and through..
All i knew was that i wanted to be with you.
I won’t force nor torment...
i will allow you to be...
All i ask is for you to remember me...

Poem- What they say

they say its ok to be afraid they say its alright to always want to die.. but then again there are the others who pray for you not to give up... they say don't kill yourself you have so much to live for they say that the past will soon fade away don't relive the past until you fade away
Well i say the pain is real it cant be forgotten in a blink of a eye you cant change the person I've become just because your afraid of the surface that meets your eyes i am who i am, i am who i wish to be my friends love me for who and what i am they accept me no matter how ignorant i can be they have patience
And yet this is what they say, they say its ok but don't leave me alone to suffer the exact pain when your gone i shall wish to die also, you cant leave me just because of your stupid fears, you are here, you have me, why is it so hard to realize i wont walk away
And here is what i say
i am afraid yes i know i am a freak yes but that's ok i am paranoid hell that's only natural
but as long as i know there is something to live for i wont give up hope that i can live my life even through all these frights i may seem out of control i may seem dense i may seem like i don't give a damn but i honestly do but my feeling are never meant to be shown you are whats real you are whats keeping me alive i need you

Poem- Stand

forever lost inside the darkness and the greatest of most moments appear and the only lasting memory i fear is the one that i hold dear it keeps me near and that i dont fear that i am no longer there i will always remain throughout your thoughts and every sight of days can only seem to fade away as long as i know that you wont give up then i can live long forever inside the world where i can never disappear and here i stand lights around me and wings spread out and whispering lullabys spread around for only you to hear. So here i stand at my funeral all is there all as it should seem to be all mope all cry all on there knees asking me why? Why did i leave them in that hell hole without someone for them to run and cry to and never will i be there for them to have a shoulder for them to lean on. Why did you go and how did you never know that i would never be alright without you beside me.. I am the angel of life i am the angel of forgiveness and i would never leave someone i hold dear in such pain and agony.. i will always stand and i will always be watching you all you have to do is promise me you wont cry at my funeral... for i promise you i wont hold it a grudge if you dont my only fear is when i can no longer speak to you and you will never know how badly i feel that i never got to say goodbye to you for when my voice fades into the lullaby of fate my last words i shall speak is i love you and i want you to live your life but never forget about me....

If i told you i loved you would it even matter if i made a promise would it even consider becasuse after all the promises you made and you broke i would say that if i broke only one it wouldnt matter one dang bit.
So if i told you that i loved you would it even matter

Poem- Seem

Does it seem like i am afraid
As if i will walk away
Does it seem like i am wortheless
As if i am nothing
Maybe depending but yet only considering that i might be
Only to some I am something
Mostly to all i am disgusting
But yet I stand with my head held high
Only knowing that I wont hide
I stand waiting for my chance to blend
Not being my normal alone shadow self
Wanting and waiting for most to see i am here
not in fear not with a tear
Standing and pleading for most to know I am alive
With a beat within my heart
With a soul to keep me right
With a life that i wont fight to die
Only because one made me right
He made me real
He made me seal my heart for his
And I shall always be his
Together shall we stay
Or shall he also fade away
I wish not
I love him to much
I want to hold him tight
Just for once
To kiss him Passionatly
To hug him mentionably
To touch his skin o'so tenderly
But what if it ends......

Poem- Never Forget

Hmmm so now is the time to say what’s on my mind well the question is, is which part do you wish to hear? The part where all my fear is all that is clear? Or the way I feel when I am with you? I will explain to you how much I love you.
You are my life, my soul, my heart, my universe. You are everything to me and I will never let that one feeling go. You keep me alive and yeah it’s kind of hard to say why, but I will do my best. You make me feel like I am actually here like there is nothing more to fear. When I hear your voice all thoughts of pain goes away in a blink of an eye. When I know that you are happy… I feel the greatest of joys throughout my soul. You accept me for who I am and what I have been through. You make me want to jump up in joy just when I see you in my thoughts. When I don’t get to talk to you I feel lonely and I begin to wonder if I ever will talk to you again. I wonder if all that you say to me is true do you actually feel the way you say you do. Do you really love me? How can it be? I am so not worthy. I am…… empty… bound…. Detached…. Mistaken… misunderstood and easily forgotten…. But why do you say I am awesome?
You are the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. You make a cloudy day turn bright. You make my world never leave the place where you run through my thoughts. You are the life, the sun, the earth, the universe, and I will be glad to put all that I have down just to make you happy. I want you to be happy. I need you to be.
So never forget that I am here and I will always stand beside your side and hold your hand till you say it’s enough and it’s time to let go. I will never give you up, unless you say we must… when you say were through than that will break my heart but as long as I know it’s for the better I will let go. But if that day ever comes, never forget…. I am here; I am your shoulder, when you need me I will always be there for you… Just never forget…. Don’t ever forget……that I love you more than you could even guess… I love you never forget that.

Alone and Bitter

Amongst the stars and onto the moon. You see what’s keeping you in this place the place that makes all fear and pain o-so clear. The one thing that you know you can’t get rid of. The thing that warms the world and keeps all humans alive. The thing is the sun. You hate the sun it’s what makes you who you are, Alone and Bitter. Alone and Bitter forever through the days. Alone and Bitter through the nights. Alone and Bitter for all eternity. Alone never known. Bitter and never forgiven. Forgotten and never wanted. Despised and loved. All through the days you wait for someone to notice that you are there, there for them. That you won’t ever leave their side, but they never turn to you. When the time comes for the sun to go away you go to the place where you feel safe, safe from the sun, safe so no-one can see you cry. You cry only because you’re Alone and Bitter. DO you know what you truly are??? You’re a shadow amongst their feet that everyone steps on at your plead. They have no interest in you they feel no sorrow. They feel no pity. All they seek is to be more known than you will ever be. You grow even more each hour that past until the sun finally goes away you disappear and into the one place that will always know you will remain. Amongst the stars and onto the moon. You see what’s keeping you in this place the place that makes all fear and pain o-so clear. The sun. The one thing that you hold dear. In your heart you fear. In your mind you hate. In your soul you love because it kept you here so you can see what this world has turned out to be.

Poem- Does it even matter

Does it even matter if I fall to my knees and beg god please to take this feeling that I feel go away?
What does it mean when the heart shutters at the littlest thought of you?
How could this be such an irresistible feeling? All I want to do now is have you in my thoughts and let this feeling take over me.
Just to know that you are there and feeling the same makes me feel like I am not alone like these feelings aren’t a fraud as if they were meant to be.
Does it even matter if I walk up to you and wrap my arms around your neck and kiss you o-so passionately?
Does it even matter if I said I Love You?
Even if I mean it?
Because my heart is true, I really love you.
So does it matter if I lie myself to sleep every night, and every night your all I can think about until I rest my head to fall asleep?
Does it even matter that when I do fall asleep, I dream, I dream of you?
You are everything, you are my precious, my life, my hope, and my desire.
So does it even matter if I cry?

Poem- Still Waiting

As the moments go by and I hear nothing from you I fear that it might be the end. But I want you to know I am still waiting. Waiting for you to come and save me from this nightmare. Waiting for you, to let you know I still love you. Waiting just to hear your voice and when I do my soul can rejoice. As the seconds go by and nothing seems to happen I swear I am still waiting for you to come my way. I promise I won’t walk away. I will always remain. My soul may be bitter, my heart may be stone, and I may seem cold, but I am still waiting. Still and always be waiting for you.

Poem- This hell inside me

This hell inside of me is burning me alive this pain that conquers all that is real here we go all over again playing this same damn game again and again lets play a new game its called give me a knife and I shall slice my wrists and then if this pain succeeds still then I shall slice my throat and watch my blood squirt all over the place. So then this hell inside me will cease to exist so that this pain will just fade away and I won’t remain.

Poem- Stays the same, even my hate

Y ou said it was going to be ok...
You told me it wasnt going to end this way..
so why did you walk away...
you pretended to care...
hell you were never there..
so why dont you leave so i can forget the ugly face that haunts even my darkest dreams.
You were never there for me..
you never existed so why is it that you insist on being with me now..
when i am old enough to say goodbye and leave this gretched town.
You were always so bias
you never understood
you dont even know what goes on in my head
dont pretend you understand
when you know you dont.
youve never been through this so just shut the fuck up.
Why dont you just walk away and pretend again that everything is the same...
Dont worry i wont let myself take the blame ...
i know and yet there is no shame its you who is lame...
to leave me sitting in the dark.. on the corner of a dark alley with nowhere to go only to defend never to lurk...
you did this to me and i hope you are happy.
i hope you look pass this smile because you never would have put it there....
unless i could have called you more than what you are...
you are nothing you never will be something
so just walk away before i grab a ball bat and ram it into your fucking guts until i hear you scream in agony.

Poem- Everyday

Everyday
Every night
All that leads me to my fright
All that makes me see what is right

The hours and days that pass me by
Only to lead to my tears that I’ve cried
To only feel what is keeping me
Alone and bitter that is mistaken

As I lie awake at night
As I dream within my sleep
All that reminds me
All that I need

The empty space on my bed
The cold breeze with nothing to defend me.
The silent night amongst me
Reminds me I don’t have you with me

This feeling that flows through my soul
The way it makes my heart beat so
How I know its real
Only by how I feel

As the days go by
Every night that passes me by
I know I can hold this dear
As long as I have you near

The ways you made me real
The ways you made me laugh
All the times I felt your touch
To symbolize the love I feel

You are my everything
You are my days
You are my nights
You are my stars in the sky

I know this is true
I will hold it dear
There is nothing left to fear
Cuz its true for I truly love you

Poem- Puppet on Chains

we cant please the world... but we can please ourselves.. but the first step is allowing yourself to do that right

but when others know your weakness they turn it against you... so they can make your life a living hell... Just in order to bribe you so they turn everything youve hidden well against you
so you have to follow through... like a puppet on chains
we have no where to go because we are afraid... we dont know what to do...
but why cant we gain strength in order to break free?

Poem- Kindred

Sisterly love is a kindred that will never end until i wait to defend and all my life is and will be a tormented hell as long as sisterly love didnt exist. As if this world was never good enough. As if time stood still would always hold that kindred even in my heart til the darkness shall over come me. To be nothing to be seen to be known as a being as blood to know we are and to know we will remain is what makes me walk everyday. Sisterly love is all that reamains and it will never fade away til you let go of all that you have gained
The bond will never be broken not til the end of time even then it shouldnt even then.

Poem

You said it was going to be ok... you told me it wasnt going to end this way.. so why did you walk away... you pretended to care... hell you were never there.. so why dont you leave so i can forget the ugly face that haunts me even in my darkest dreams. You were never there for me.. you never existed so why is it that you insist on being with me now.. when i am old enough to say goodbye and leave this gretched town. You were always so bias you never understood you dont even know what goes on in my head dont pretend you understand when you know you dont. youve never been through this so just shut the fuck up.Why dont you just walk away and pretend again that everything is the same... Dont worry i wont let myself take the blame ... i know and yet there is no shame its you who is lame... to leave me sitting in the dark.. on the corner of a dark ally with nowhere to go only to defend never to lurk... you did this too me and i hope you are happy. i hope you look pass this smile because you never would have put it there.... unless i could have called you more than what you are... you are nothing you never will be something so just walk away before i grab a ball bat and ram it into you fucking guts until i hear you scream in agony.

Mistaken

Awakening


They say it’s the time it’s our moment our chance. But then again why would they say such a thing when none of us run free?
As the days roll by and my years in end and my legacy that will only be defended by soldiers that have kept my body alive for 600 years in a tank full of ice cold water with a tube hooked to my mouth feeding me calcium and oxygen to keep me strong. Yet there is also a hint of a steroid material mixed in.
I have no name, no where to run. Just a tank, waiting until my moment has come, all I know is what I hear, my memories have been erased except my name Marina.
They say its almost time, I hear screaming, them saying that I wasn’t completely whole yet. I feel every part of me, at least what I know is suppose to be here, I don’t know. Someone then taps on the glass, I wanted to see, but theses darkening things are keeping me. I hear a gun shot and it feels like the water is running low, its emptying. Someone shouts in agony “O god no, don’t awaken it!” What am I, how dangerous could I be? I don’t understand. I hear another gun shot and the man screaming suddenly stops. The tank shatters, with a sound of a whack. I tumble out twitching not use to the air.
The man who realized my movement screams at me. My only thought was to run but I just couldn’t find my legs. My final option was to flinch, without knowing what was coming for me.
I couldn’t feel anything wet. I felt dry. I couldn’t see anything. These things that didn’t allow me to were frustrating me. He continued to yell at me. I cried not knowing what to do or how to react. Then a woman with a soft tender like voice emerged “You cant use force nor anger to get this beast to talk.” I didn’t like the categorization of what she put me in. But what is a “beast” like me too do.
When I knew for sure they got bored of me trying to find my mouth. I was cautiously trying to move the easy parts of my body. First was my thumbs on each hand, then I tried for every finger, after 20 minutes I finally got it. Then I searched for my legs. I only moved one I could feel it. But the other, it wasn’t there. “Completely Whole?” I managed to find my mouth and my eyes at the exact same time. When the two people heard me they ran at me like a cougar for its next victim. I flinched and mumbled “My leg?” They smiled viscously and then said “Yes you have it” I managed a look that I was actually hoping for, I smiled wryly and unpleasantly, as if to say get the fuck out of my face and the said “No the one that isn’t formed yet.” They gave me a sour and an unpleasant scream “You will not and shall not disobey nor question us you beast.” I smiled and then chuckled “Beast? Really I, Thy, Me? No. Beast? I laugh at you” They then pulled out a rope and tied me to a metal pole and then walked away as if they could be conspicuous around this beast.
As they disappeared, I felt an urge, not a normal one I would say, not one a normal human being would have. It was the urge to kill. I didn’t like these people nor the fact that they never tried once to call me normal as if they were trying to piss me off, well I would say it was working pretty well, self explanatory, but the hisses I keep tormenting out only for no one to hear. I was in pain, I wanted to run, but with a leg missing, and me being tied to a pole I knew I wasn’t going anywhere without corporation. Then if that’s the case I can play along as long as they don’t see through my gestures and keep me prisoner even longer. That would be credible, I must keep my attitude and posture in order to get out of this. I must keep cool and then they as humans will want me as a tool and then put some artificial limp on me so they think they can tame and release me. I will then ruin that plan and I will kill them as if nothing would matter if not I shall do it.

Pain

The people that were holding me captive were such beautiful people. The man , now that I learned his name which was Jason. He was about 6’2” with blue eyes and a muscular body, his hair was brown with a tint of blonde streaks that he fixed kind of sloppy. His features made his stand out more than his abs. It seemed he had a doll face when he laughed he had dimples and the way he looked at the female was so intensifying. She herself had a name that I didn’t like in particular, Dana, she had long curly blonde hair and baby blue eyes. She was 5’7” and her face was oldish but only in the mature way. Their voices rung out like bells so tenderly being rung, and their clothes ruined all fate of being perfect. Jason was wearing Kaki pants and wasn’t wearing a shirt above his bear skin, he wore a black coat almost like something you would see in Stars Wars. Dana, she was wearing a Kaki skirt that was 10* too short and a bikini top with also the same kind of coat as Jason.
They were beautiful and they didn’t understand why I blushed ever time one of them came into face distance. They laughed every time I smelled them or reached for their face but they never allowed me to do either. They always flinched away as if I were to rip their heads off, but I knew why they were so scared, humans are afraid of things they don’t understand. Then again aren’t beasts the same? Even though I keep calling myself one I know I’m not. I don’t wish to hurt these people, I only want them to understand, why they cease to know who I am. If I spoke again, would they listen or try to kill me.
I opened my mouth to say a thought or maybe a lie; I don’t exactly know what I was thinking all I knew was that there was a new smell in the room. Smell of cinnamon and Axe the body spray. I begin to sniff more and more as it got closer. Before I knew it, I closed my eyes and the smell overcame me. I almost fainted. I opened my eyes to balance myself and there in front of my face was the beauty of every beast that will even remain. I wanted him, I needed him. Even though I didn’t know him I felt as though he was mine even before he spoke.
When he first spoke his first word to me he treated me as if I was any other human. It sent sparks through my heart to my brain. I almost frenzied out of the chains and when I couldn’t I leaned my head down to sob, without allowing any of these beast keepers to see how weak I really was.
He grabbed my chin and smiled tenderly at me and then kissed me on the forehead and spoke again “ I am Jared and as long you corporate, I promise, I will not hurt you or allow then to” when I heard his voice in sentences I blushed really big and then nodded in agreement and he smiled an immediate dangerous smile, I understood, he wasn’t telling me to corporate he wanted me to run away, but by him saying those words to me also meant that he was going to help, he wanted me to be a real beast they see me as, and as long as they see me as a beast they will be treating me as one. I am pretty sure they aren’t planning on treating me a human anytime soon. With those words and that one look I knew all that.
My eyes widened in astonishment and I just stared at him in his deep green eyes and as he rose up I stared at his features, he had longish short black hair he had glasses and a slender body, not as muscular as Jason, but still a little bit. He had on a pair of baggy black cargos with a chain hanging from his belt loop to his back pocket. His shirt was tight and had a skater symbol on it. He walked over to a chair and picked up the same kind of jacket as the others had. When he went to put it on he fanned all of his scent right back to me. I breathed in deeply to only catch it all. When he heard me, he turned around and began to chuckle gently. Jason and Dana both had heard and came in to see if anyone else was here to takes Jared’s attention, but all they saw was me.
They both frowned the biggest ever known, I laughed at their somehow agony. It kind of pleasured me to see them in pain as if they were expecting someone magnificent than Jared and I talking. They both looked at Jared and motioned for him to come along with them. Jared turned around towards me only to see me shivering. He then laughed out loud, I blushed and put my head down in embarrassment and he smiled really big and handed me his jacket, I frowned and he realized why I was and then he smiled and wrapped it around me. Then rubbed my arm all the way down to my hip in the process, I felt my heart speed up so fast and my face turn red and he saw. He grabbed my chin again, but this time only to kiss my lips. I kissed back of course. Before I knew it he had ht chains undone and whispering in my ear “don’t make a move til I come back, if I don't, try not to die." he smiled and then kissed the crease of my neck and then walked off with the other two of his clan.
When he disappeared I sighed only thinking no one would hear. Unfortunately a cat did. The cat was silverish blue with a random orange spot on the tip of its tail, he was cute , he had a collar that had its name on it, which was Oscar. The cat came up to me and started to rub up all over me and climbed in my lap, got in my face began to lick my nose. I giggled because it tickled really badly and the cat kept doing it trying to get me to pet him. I wasn't suppose to move but the cat was so tempting, I promised Jared not to move. As soon as i thought his name I blushed and then the cat got really pissed and bit my nose. I screamed out in pain and had a tear roll down from my eyes and the cat in my right hand choking the dumb thing. The cat was gagging and hissing, his tail twitching. I laughed at its pain and when there was no sight of life left to that cat I threw it to a wall as hard as I could, the cats head bashed in and cracked on the floor allowing blood to spill everywhere. I chuckled and said " Thats what you get Oscar, bite me, I kill you!" I was still giggling by the time Jared, Dana, and Jason had come back to the room each one of them gave me a look that was practically asking me how could I have done that to a innocent creature. I looked at Jared, who seemed to be ashamed now and then frowned really big, and put my head down in my hands.
Jason was quick, he came over grabed me by the hair and started to beat my head into the wall. Blood started trinckling out through a newly cut in my head. I began coughing up blood by the sixth hit. Jared just stood there watching and wondering. Dana was clapping her hands together making Jason hit harder. The phone rang somewhere in the house, Dana went running for it. When she disappeared, Jason told Jared to go get him a beer. Jared rolled his eyes and obeyed. Jason turned to look at meand then smiled. He grabed around my neck even hareder but not choking me like before, to hold me back from fighting him. He began to smell my hair and then made his hand go from my neck to my boob. He squeezed it and began to breathe hard.
Since i was already naked, because the jacket Jared had wrapped around me fell off. Jason had nothing to rip off, which this pleased him a whole lot more. Through the house i heard Dana still on the phone and Jared cursing the fridge because the damn thing wont open, you could hear him beating it. I wanted to scream, but what would any of the others do to help me, As I was searching noice to help me find out if someone was coming Jasons breathe became heavier as he moved down my body with his hands until he reached one spot where he only used his fingers, he began to move his fingers inside me around and around, in and out, each movement made me gasp. he bit my neck and threw me to the ground, layed ontop of me, made me spread my legs as far as they were ever meant to go and then thrusted himself inside me. I moaned in pain and managed a scream, except not a scream "ahh" but a scream like " Damn it, get the fuck off of me" I screamed that as loud as I could and he muzzled my mouth and continued to thrust himself inside. He breathed in deeply and roughly following his pattern of thrusts.
I was running low on blood because of my forehead, I thought it was bleeding way more than normal. As he continued, I began to lose conscienceness but before I could see darkness fully I saw Jared run up to Jason and punched the shit out of him. I heard him yelling and screaming which seemed so far away. He was right there, holding me. I managed two words, before the darkness overcame me "thank you". After that fell into the dark, I fainted, lost to the dark unknowing what could happen next.

"Hidden"

I wasnt fully awake but i could still feel the movement. I know I wasnt being dragged, I knew I was being carried. I didnt know by who or where they were taking me. The person was holding me gently. I was imaging the outcomes of this and hoping in the end I will see Jareds face again. I was in this persons arms, wincing in pain because the movements hurt me from my head down. The person carrying me somehow read my thoughts and eased up on the jarring. I didnt open my eyes not once I just stayed unmoving hoping my time was not yet up.
I felt a change in temperature. It went from freezing to fairly warm. We had entered a house. The one that carried me took me through this unfamiliar place and layed me down gently on a soft cushiony spot. They grabbed my arms and handcuffed me to the railing of the bed to be sure I wouldnt do something that might get them killed I supposed. When I heard the footsteps disappear out of the room, I opened my eyes and looked around.
I first looked at the dark ceiling and then the back wall where a TV was sitting. Beside the TV was a flower vase with dead flowers in it. On the wall next to the TV on the left side of the room was the door we entered from and a picture of a beautiful woman. I smiled at the picture and then whispered " Beauty of the Beholder". I sighed and then looked on the right all where there wasnt much just a fish tank with salt water fish. A pufferfish that I decided was cranky because he just kept attacking the little Nemo looking fish. After I got bored of watching the fish I looked up at my hands and the wall behind me. Nothing was on it, just a bare wall. I sighed again because there was nothing else to stare at. So I was searching for the pesron who had brought me here. I heard bags rattleing and him moaning in anger.
After 20 minutes I heard a loud Bang. I jumped in fright not knowing what to think. This man could have been shot for taking me. He could have gotten squished by something he was searching thrugh. I didnt know, I didnt want myself to look like a fool if the man came in here seeign me cry for some unknown persons death so I held it in.
After 5 minutes, I heard him cuss the scream "Screw it, this is good enough". Then I heard footsteps fast and stomping the man came in the room didnt look at me, shut the door and then got on top of me without looking at my face. He undones the handcuffs and then raised me up and put on a bra and panties, then a brown skirt and a white spahgetti strap shirt. He smiled at his accomplishment until he saw my eyes wide open and face redder than a tamatoe. He blushed and then got off of me as fast as his feet and head would allow. He then got wobbily and fainted right on me agian his head resting on my cleavage and hios hand on my belly. I was trying not to breathe hard because i didnt want to awake him, but it was so hard. I loved his scent, I loved the way his skin felt on mine. This man, Jared, was all I ever wanted. He saved me, from the beast keepers. I now owe this man my life in return. I sighed as I brushed my hand through his hair. I whispered " Why are you so nice to me?" he jumped in his sleep when I said those words, then his hand went to rest uder his head and on my boob. I didnt mind he was gentler that Jason and I trusted him not to do anything to me. At least I thought he wouldnt.
Jared woke up before me and got off of me, then just laid beside me, he grabbed my hand, started tracing the lines that was on it. Jared seemed to be thinking of something. I wanted to ask but he seemed alot more comfortable when I was sleeping, so I just sat there pretending. As we layed there in silence the door bell rang, he got up in a flash and ran. He smiled from what I could see and let the visitor in.
This visitor was a man, with a white coat on and a box that had the red hospial sign on it, and in the other hand a metal box. The box was shiny and when I heard Jared say "hold on please doctor, allow me to go get her." I became nervous. I just scruntched up in a ball, and hid my face. Jared came in and tapped on whatever he thought was me, which it was, but it was my forehead that was now a giant scab. I felt the scrap bust open and I began to bleed again.
I didnt move nor make a noise Jared tried to take the blanket off of me, though I had all my body weight on it. So he was forced to go through the bottom of the blanket. As he climbed up through the blankets rubbing himself against me and his breathe caressing my skin sent cold chills across my body. When he reached the top of the bed where my head laid with eyes closed trying not to make no sudden movement that might have scared Jared in the end. Jared smiled and whispered "You know we are going to give you a leg, you shouldnt be afraid, please come out." He grabbed my hand and i squeezed it. He raised me up to get the blankets out from under me. When the blankets we off, he got off of me, picked me up and then led me straight to the doctor. Jared nodded at the doctor and then smiled at me. I gasped. He chuckled and then turned to the Doctor that was getting very impatient. I tried to force a smile to make the doctor seem welcomed but I only scared the poor guy. The doctor gave a cough and the began to speak. "Well.... so she is the one we are putting that limb on for?" Jared began to speak. "Yes Doctor Hanes, I will pay." the doctor laughed and then smiled at me. " No I dont think payment is necessary, after all, those hunters is what wants her." Jared frownedat that thought, I sighed and then thought of Jason.
I shuddered, Jared felt it and then pressed himself lightly against me. I blushed nobody noticed because Jared was then cleaning a spot and laying out newspapers on the ground while Doctor Hanes was getting the limb read to be placed on. I was very nervous. I didnt know what to do or to think. Whether I should trust thid man or not, but if he was a friend of Jareds I would have to try because Jared was now my number one priority now. He has hidden me, saved me, and now giving me a leg. Yet, I have nothing in return.

Walking

The pain was overwhelming, I didnt know what the Doc was doing I was too busy staring at Jared and his face just telling me that I will be alright, his face was promising. I tried not to scream, I just kept letting out sighs of pain, but yet relief that this man was still standing beside me. The doctor kept the cuts slow and easy hoping it wouldnt cause me as much pain, honestly I prefer this hell to be quick and done with. He was cutting along my skin to find my nerves but since I didnt have a leg before, just formed a stub it was harder than it was suppose to be. I just rode it out. Once he found my nerves the doctor laughed becuase I sighed in relief. "Well darling the worst part is over" the doctor laughed and hooked the limb to me and I jerk in astonishment. The doctor kept a close eye on me to make sure I wasnt going to faint from blood loss. He was drilling the screws inside my leg for the limb to stay attached. My other leg was already numb from all the pain. So I was stareing aroung wondering when this was going to end so I can eat already. My stomach gurgled really loud about the time the doctor decided to stop drilling. Jared looked down at me and just laughed out loud. I blushed and said lightly " What Im hungry. Oxygen and Calcium Water dont last forever." he smiled at me speaking to him. I hardly ever did/ This was my third day actually knowing him. Yet it seems as if I've known him longer. Then all of a sudden he frowned. I looked at him in wonder. He tilted his head in question. I frownned and then asked in a higher key " you okay?" he smiled a fake smile that would try to convince someone to back off, so I did. He smiled one to say thankyou. I smiled and then closed my eyes and i heard two sets of footsteps and then I heard the Doc and Jared talking I couldnt hear them, but all I knew was that I had a new set of toes and they were shiny. I thought of them as a guidancce. I wanted to walk, I couldnt, I was too dizzy and I didnt even know how to, so I just closed my eyes again, waiting for the footsteps to return, but before they did I fell into a deep sleep.
I dreamed of me walking with double swords and a black cloak like Jared's, Jason's, and Dana's. I dreamed that I ws married with a kid. Female about 16 years of age, but I didnt age, my husband, not with me, left with a boat for a trip never returned. We were being attacked my little girl an assassin, fighting like a pro. Me, I was better with the swords, they were like my key. We were ambushed. My little girl got her head cut off. I was stabed. Then Jared's face was there. The one killing me.
I woke up screaming. Jared came running. he grabbed my arm and asked "Whats wrong?". Before I could think. I wrapped my arms around him and began to sob loudly. He put one arm around me and lightly patted my back. After 2 minutes he wrapped both arms around me and then kissed me on the top of my head. I squeezed him tighter and then whispered "Please dont ever hate me" he squeezed me tighter " I wont I am your protector" I sighed and then let go and yawned really big. He let go and laid down beside me. he pulled the blankets over him, and grabbed my shirt to pull me close as close as I could be too him. I loved his warmth. It felt so good. He whispered in my ear "You are my responsibility, I will never hurt you." I yawned again and planted my face into his chest. I ws counting his beats and by the 20th I fell right asleep.
When I woke back up Jared was gone. I got up so fast my leg sent sharp shocks up my body, I grabbed ahold of a chair that was next to me. I leaned on it and fell flat on my face. I winced at the pain. I grabbed the chair again to help me up and to fix it in its upright position. When finally I was on both feet I tried my first step. I became wobbly again and didnt finish that step. I got angry. I took my foot off the ground and pushed it forward and then I did the same with the other. It hurt so badly, but I wanted Jared. I began to cry. I couldnt make it too him wherever he was. I wasnt going to give up not yet. I kept going forward. I kept going each step getting faster and faster until I met it to a stride. I didnt notice, I didnt even care. I made it to the bathroom where I heard the water running in the shower, but there was no change in the flow of the water hitting the bottom of the tub. I yelled "Jared" no reply. I got worried and barged in. He was in the bath tub laying down with the water flowing over him and blood all over him. he looked at me and did an eye movement telling me to look behind me. I did and right behind me was Jason. He grabbed my arm and pulled me with him. I yelled. He began to laugh and the said " member the last time love, I wasnt quite done with you then." I screamed louder as he threw me onto the bed. Jason then ripped off my clothes and began to undo his belt. i was looking around for a weapon. What I found were the weapons from my dream, my swords. I grabbed them and then moved them in a slicing motion and managed to cut hos dick off. He got off of me and screamed loudly. I was in my bra and panties, but wasnt done with him either. I went up to him in a fighting stance, he was holding where he had no penis. he was screaming. I began to laugh and then moved the blade to his head abd slit his neck off, his body laid there twitching. I looked at the blades dropped them and went running to Jared.

Darkness WIll Rise

The end is coming near and everything will soon be over came in the shadows. Peoples screams will be the only thing that you hear. Pain will be the only thing that you will seek or hear throughout this time of sadness. The hell beneath us will rise and devour us. The soldiers that wait without hesitation are the saviors to the mortal kind. These saviors are the ones who are suppose to be willing to put their lives on the line just for a measly mortal who can’t even raise a fist to such insanity. The demons are the ones who go out of their way to gain a bit of attention from the saviors. The saviors have all kinds of abilities that separate them from one another. Which means each savior is unique. The powers are based upon ones ancestor. Which the only was for a savior to gain there power is for their line ancestor to die. The power will go to the second kin from their death.

It is said that the hell beneath us will rise within the next 12 years. The flames will devour the likes of this planet and all who is mortal will succumb to the darkness and they will become what we fight. The saviors that sit with nothing to do, no training, and never willing to think that the time is near, they now have 15 years of power they must control and awaken yet again.

I am Delana and I am a savior, well suppose to be that is. I mean my grandmother hasn’t hit the ground yet. Even though that is a mean way to say that but it’s the god’s honest truth. She is 95 years old and I am pretty damn sure she won’t be able to fight in the next 9 years nor 12. It is said that a savior needs at least 6 years with their powers in order to gain enough control where when they use their powers they won’t blow this crude world to fucking shreds. I don’t like this planet it is disgusting. The mortals are such complainers and it’s just so damn dreadful to know their world is never going to be the world they want it to be. As a matter of fact, as long as my grandmother lives and she can barely walk, the mortals will all become the demons that I know lurks beneath their insolence. My grandmother has the power of fire and levitation. She herself was known as the strongest savior of them all. She could lift a demon in mid-air and then put a raging ball of fire around the beast body burning it till its ungodly body looks like the coal at the bottom of a fire place. I love knowing of the cruelty we gave those beasts, but I hate knowing the gift of life we give to these mortals. I live on this planet to learn about these people. My superiors told me that if I am not willing to understand these dreadful creatures I will never be able to gain my powers to protect these people. Which I know that is a complete load of bullshit, because that old fart of a grandma will die eventually and I am next in line.

“Delana get your ass over here right now or you’re fucking fired!!” my boss Ricardo screaming at me while he threw the plastic dishes at me and nearly hitting my face. “You actually think I give a flying shit?” I screamed right back using the nastiest look I can manage and since I already hate this man more than anything I am pretty sure it was always the best to my abilities to freak the hell out of this mortal. I just continued to walk away and each step I took the redder his face got. I smiled and then turned around. Ricardo was now stepping back into the kitchen. I laughed and then walked 4 blocks before I rammed myself into some man that smelled very sensual for some odd reason. “Watch it you dickwad!” I screamed that louder than I was even meaning it to be. “Well… umm… I’m sorry but I’m afraid you walked into me.” “You could have moved to dodge me.” I was getting a little frustrated now because he was talking to me as if I was his friend. I am no mortals friend. I am only here to protect this planet from the darkness nothing more and it was so damn aggravating that he would even try to talk to me like I am just like him. “Well I am sorry to say this miss but you were a fucking speed trap and nobody could have dodged your damn walking. So next time you watch where the hell you are going and then maybe somebody might be pleased!” he said it with such fierceness and it proved my logic was right. Behind their masks of innocence there is the demon that lurks beneath. That’s what made this damn planet so easy to be over come by the darkness. “Seems your not all that you cut out to be, why so nice then so cruel? You think you’re beyond me? Well sorry but you won’t ever compare to the likes of me!” I said stomping off. “So in which that means your better than me right Savior” he said that with a sort of threatening kind of voice. One that would say if you dare I know how to stop you. I stopped dead in my tracks and just stared at him in astonishment. Our kind, the saviors, they are suppose to be unknown, a secret, if that is true how in the hell would a mortal know about us. “How in the hell do you know about the saviors?” I looked at him now with great sadness. He was either the demon within him or he was one of the saviors that gained his powers already. He just smiled and then walked off. I was so confused I just stood there. After about 5 minutes and my head began to hurt thinking trying to find out who the hell he was, I decided that I might need to find out because I could be putting my life in jeopardy when I gain my powers. I ran as fast as I could but I couldn’t find this man. “Damn it! Why the hell did I stop!” I screamed at myself and then turned around and began to stomp off. Before I could even take a step or even take a breath he was there inches from my face and I can feel the fire within him burning. As if he was ready for a fight. I became a little scared and began to back away slowly so that way if he was a demon and he wanted me dead I could at least get a few feet away from him. I was no match for a demon being mortal without powers in all. “I’m sorry for being a bitch but please can we have a real match when I gain my powers?”

Lost Soldiers

You never know when all time is going to end or when fate will have it out for you. You cant always wait for the moment when all this goodness crashes and burns to turn everything you love and care about to hell. Like every other person I've learned not to let it bring me down. Like every other day I know just what it takes to make my life just a little bit great. That's why I am the lone lost soldier of my days.

I deliberately told that insignificant fool to put the food in the oven by 12:00 p.m. it is now 4:30 p.m. I now have to run out like a complete fool to get food for him and I and it is such a waste of valuable time. I grabbed my car keys and took off. I put the car in reverse, pulled out of the driveway and then floored it as soon as i got it into drive. I was so pissed that it wasn't even funny. I passed every single red light there was and didn't even think slowing down was an option. Dontae was never the man you would want to call your lover, he would be seen as a friend and nothing more. Dontae always had to have everything his way or it was the shredded highway. I've been living with this idiotic bum for 6 years now and he never tries to make anything right and it just gets so aggravating.

When I got to the store, I slammed my car door shut and then stomped in. The lady at the register smiled and said "He did it again didn't he?"
I frowned and said "Of course Marissa! Why the hell else would I fucking be here?"
Marissa gave me this evil smile as if suggesting I was an idiot for using that language in front of her but I couldn't give a damn. I started walking through the aisles trying to find something that sounded good and that would take less than 15 minutes to eat. I came to the can food section and just grabbed two cans of Spahgetti O's. When I reached the register Marissa just frowned and ringed up the food. I handed her a 20 and then grabbed my bag. Marissa grabbed my arm and handed me the change. I frowned and then just continued to stomp off.
" Ya know Lyna, you would be so much happier if you left that son-of-a-bitch" Marissa said to me. I just smiled and continued to stomp off. I looked behind me tilted my head to the side "Then who the hell else would take care of your brother?"
" Just feed him to the vultures he will be so much happier when he isn't swallowing his life in beer and sewage."
"Yeah perhaps. I'm sorry for being such a bitch to you."
"Nah, it's ok, I know how frustrating he can get."
"Thanks Marissa, I have to go before he causes himself a hernia."
"Alright, see you later Lyna."
I get my keys from my pocket and then head to my car. I put the keys in the ignition and turn to start it. The engine roared to life and it sent cold chills up my body. I always loved my cars much more than my men. Cars always seemed to make me feel so much more alive, more than Dontae ever did.

When I got home Dontae started out already bitching and complaining because 30 minutes in a grocery store is all too long, which to my knowledge that is just bullshit. I just glared at him and went to the kitchen. Dontae got out of his seat and followed me. He was standing above my shoulder breathing in my air, rasping, as if he was thinking he was going to get something. I grabbed the can opener and then placed it on the can trying to ignore his ignorance and also the fact that now he was grabbing my ass. He licked my ear and then moved his hand upward onto my boob and then began to squeeze. I jerked back in astonishment and then pushed him away. he glared down at me and then pushed me against the counter and undid his pants button. He smiled at me and said in a soft whisper "Forget about food I would drather eat you."
I threw the can opener down on the floor and slapped him so hard in the face that his face now had a giant red handprint on it. "You will next time think wisely of what you say or do to me." Dontae's face became a symbol of new pain and betrayal. Somehow this amused me very much. He turns his face towards me. He pulls his hand back and clenches his fist and then met it with my face. I fell to the ground and held my face in pain. I was trying so hard not to cry. I got off the floor and he kicked me in the head. I rammed my head into the side of the table causing my head to bleed massively. I cringed in fear when he bent down with his face two inches from mine.
"Now precious will you back talk me again?" while he was saying this he was rubbing the back of my head with fierce pulling of my hair.
"Yes I will!" I now had tears rolling down my face from the pain.
"Well that's just to bad." he screamed that at me and then grabbed my head and beat it into the table until my blood was a pool around us both and I was lingering into the darkness.

When I woke up from the darkness all I saw was bright lights and all I could smell was old people. All I could think about was that it was brighter than hell. I knew i wasn't home, I was either in a looney bin or a hospital. As soon as I heard on the intercom some nurse looking for a Dr. Grant, I figured I was in the hospital. I tried to sit up. My head got really dizzy and I began to laugh non-stop. I think that was because of the morphine that they are feeding me. Which I liked a lot. Maybe too much if it was making me laugh this hysterically when I couldn't even keep my head in balance. My stomach began to quiver and I thought from laughing so much I was going to pass out. That was until Dontae came in with a fake worried face. I stopped laughing and then glared at him.
"Hi ass how was the miraculous beating you gave me?" I said it with such anger and pain that he flinched farther away from my bed.
"It was the best I ever had. How was it for you? Wait I know this one. It was the best you had, hell it made you black out." he said it with a teasing smile and o how I wanted to rip that damn look off his face.
"Yes it was the best, as a matter of fact it was so fucking painful that when I get the hell outta here your going to be dead. Hows that sound?" I gave him the same smile he was giving me. Before Dontae could reply the doctor came in and said I have a cracked skull. Dontae looked at the doctor and began to cry. He was gripping the doctors shirt screaming in agony.
"Is she going to be okay doctor? Please tell me she is going to be okay!!"
The doctor just looked at him then looked at me and smiled. I really didn't get the secret message until Marissa walked in with two cops followed behind. I giggled and Dontae looked at me and then saw the cops getting their handcuffs ready. Dontae winged his hand back and jarred it as hard as he could into the smaller cops face. The larger cop pulled out his gun and then Dontae fell to the ground without hesitation. He glared at me while the cops were putting the handcuffs onto his hands and legs for safe measures. After they got the cuffs on him they began to do a full body search to see if he had weapons or guns on him. When the were complete they lifted Dontae up off his knees and onto his feet. When he was perfectly balanced on his feet he just continuously stared at me. I wasn't paying any attention to what the cops were telling me all I knew was that, that look Dontae was giving me now was a warning. Telling me when he gets out of jail he is come and he is going to find me and he is going to kill me. I knew by that look I should as soon as possible get the hell out of Missouri and find somewhere else and change my name because this mad man is not going to ever give up until I am 9 feet under.

As soon as the cops dragged him out of my hospital room the doctor looked at me and frowned. I frowned and then pulled the IV out of my arm and then followed by those stupid annoying sticky things they put on you to see if your hearts still beating. The machine started beeping like crazy and a nurse walked in and then started freaking out until she saw the doctor over my bed staring at me. I was a bit nervous, he was kind of freaky when you get face close to him. Or that could have just been an after effect of a abuse.